2009 is here!

Well...it's official. 2008 is over and 2009 has begun...thank goodness. I'm not going to say that 2008 was a bad year, but it was definitely trying. Between dealing with my parents divorce becoming official, the petty games that went along with it and my father's unexpected death, it was a very emotional year. But I still had a lot of good times. I have wonderful friends who checked in on me often even when I pulled away to deal with my sorry. I have a fabulous sister who I think I would go insane without having her to commiserate with on our family dramas. I have a boyfriend who is nothing less than amazing. I don't know what I do without my Steve. He is my rock, my cuddle-blanket, my lover, my friend....he is my everything. His kindness through times of sorry and anger overwhelms me. I thank God for him everyday.

The holidays actually went much better than I expected this year. Both Thanksgiving and Christmas were spent amongst my 'family'. I put family in quotations because my blood relatives are very few up here. I have my mom and my sis. But I have a lot of 'family'. They are my good friends that have become my adopted family. They are always there when I need them and I'm actually closer to them than I am to my extended family back east. Thus, I spent my holidays with the people I love and who love me and it was fabulous. We shared great food, and laughs, and lots of good memories of Dad. I was severely depressed after my Dad's death. I lost interest in life. I didn't want to do anything or see anyone. The holidays actually helped pull me out of this. I don't know exactly when it happened but I finally started to laugh and joke again on my own. I find myself walking around with my usual smile. People at work have stopped asking me what's wrong all the time because I finally seem like myself again. Granted I still have my moments. Sometimes it hits me that my dad is gone and I start crying in the middle of the day over nothing. But overall, I'm feeling good again. And I like it.

I have great hope for this year. Will the entire year be perfect? Nothing is ever perfect. But I learned a lot in 2008. I learned about life, my family, and myself. This knowledge will be put to good use this year. So here's to 2009. Let it be an adventure!